The chatter is all you read about.
The chatter is all you talk about.
The idea of only a few words
Spreads through your mind like bacteria
Infecting your brain with millions of possibilities
The chances of opportunity, turn into theories
which leads you to tell someone else
Make that an assumption.
These white blood cells don't fight fast enough
These white blood cells can't cure cancer.
But you don't have the source, you only have a few palabras.
The assumptions turn to rumors, the rumors you deliver to your friends like pizza.
"Did you hear that? Because he said she said that"
Your rumors might as well be the truth because nothing else is believable,
No nothing else is desirable.
Like the world and everything else, we fill our minds with one simple idea
And our brains find a fitting solution which is applicable to the general population.
A solution which has a better understanding and comfortability.
Nobody likes it when plans do not work out, Nobody likes it when things can not be explained.
The mere idea of complexity hordes us because it hasn't happened before
The mere idea of the impossible reaches out to our red flags only to say
This is wrong, this is not what we had in mind. Impossible.
Eh the impossible started by the simplicity of communication.
Text message, Facebook Status, In person, or phone call.
How well do we know the person before we fuel the disease?
We don't, we only see symptoms and hope to find the right medicine.
A plague you see, has developed into a monster.
Maybe not a monster everyone fears, but a monster nonetheless
Half of the world doesn't look in their closet, while the other half refuses to confront it.
We depend on the closet door staying shut and we'll continue to abuse its privileges.
Wake up.
Look at all the prophecy
Look at all your instances of examples
Times that by 7 billion and you have an entire universe
And that's only one.
Gossip gossip nigga just stop it, everybody knows it's a motherfuckin monster.
Nobody likes old school, everyone likes the new stuff.
One idea is all it takes, one idea to define you or break you.
Everyone likes to jib jabber and those remains in our brains
Just like an STD can stay dormant for the longest time.
It's not in one ear and out the other, it's in there for good.
Get some ideas, talk your shit.
I may not know much but I do know what you're saying.
The chatter is what you are reading now.
The chatter is what you'll be talking about.
You can't help yourself.
It's been awhile since we've last spoken.
Since then, hurricanes have hit and storms have come too
There's been heartaches, there's been tragedy, there's been deaths.
Lives have been jeopardized, houses have been lost.
Recession has hit, banks have been dumped.
Everything that used to be is more than broken.
As i walk through the valley of death, i fear more than evil.
There is no comfort and i am haunted.
And Though you're still with me, i've been alone
This could break my heart or save me.
Nothing's real until you let go completely.
You wouldn't understand even if I told you.
It's been a long road since i've let tears out,
But that doesn't stop me from thinking of our past.
I see you daily like there's a connection.
I see you daily like my second emotion.
I see you daily like there's something to remember.
In my mind or in my heart, I'm nothing but invisible to your eyes.
There's more to me that meets the eye.
There's more to you than i can describe.
I wish you looked at me that way.
You've lost that loving feeling.
Bakit labis kitang mahal.
I'd beg if it was necessary,
I'd plead if there was a point.
I'd say Don't leave me like this.
But the words that are on your face when i look at you
Already describes the pain and agony i am faced.
This is a chapter in our lives where we ll look back and you'll say,
"I made it." And ill say "i broke it."
To the day i can see your eyes speak love,
Ill stand in the rain, waitin by the phone
To hear i don't need to be alone, "come with me"
You're better than what you think of yourself.
Comfortability is a bitter sweet thing isn't it.
You dont wanna move on but you dont wanna stay.
I don't want to hurt you cause i never meant to burn you out
Black and white until you provide me color everywhere
Even heroes have the right to dream.
I write this like there's a point, so we hold our hearts up high
No, I write this because you're far from gone.
You're in there somewhere, i can see it in your eyes.
You're just afraid of your greatest fears.
So i say to you, there's more than one light
And You can sleep safe tonight.
When you need A place to cry, i got you.
Just get on the phone, and ill pick you up.
For better or for worse don't fall apart.
Think of me, long and deep.
Just know its not easy being me. The valley of wrong.
Everyone hates em but the world doesn't know em.
They said they gonna be great some day.
Yeah the day ain't today.
The game is played with inches, not yards.
The games about points, not off the rebound.
Give em a chance and they'll succeed expectations.
Righteous, moral, maybe immortal living
We think it's Superman, maybe it's not.
Fortress of solitude or popular.
THey'll save the day, or so many think.
It's the prophecy, maybe the destiny.
Don't nobody know em the way they want to.
THey're's a great person, give em some opportunities.
THey will fight their heart out for a lost cause.
Yeah well, Hearts still relate with blood.
Mistakes are made and they're not to be judged.
Fool you once shame on em, fool em twice shame on you.
Maybe they're what everyone's been searching for, maybe they're a fluke.
It's joy, it's right, it's love
Or is it hate, wrong, and hope.
Do not trust a hope.
Questions about the actions are wrongful choices.
Same story, fable, prophecy
Something to put they're faith in.
But don't be disappointed when terms aren't met.
Change lanes bitch. Move out the way hoe.
Congratulations they've reached their desire.
Revival, survival, relief, rejuvenated
Yeah bitches jump for joy.
Sike. But remember.
Everybody dies but not everyone lives.
We never get flowers while we can still smell em.
Even roses die some day.
Breathe when the world still has fresh air.
Cause you better cherish this moment for life.
Merry Christmas 2010.
Your welcome your welcome.
things arent what they used to be.
friends gone. businesses dissapated.
im left standing a changed perason.
the world i began to understand
the less you knew about me
the more i know, the less i understand.
what never makes sense is
i know what i can do and what i can change
but theres always some unaccountable factor.
we make the opportunity enabled to us
but how much of the opportunity is in our hands
to determine the outcome.
if i have the abilities to obtain a job
the company still needs to hire me.
if i like a girl and can show her the world,
the girl still needs to like me,
the girl still needs to want to see the world.
the blind squirrel is still a blind squirrel
no matter what you do, they still cant see.
i cant point the diection, hold your hand and show you the way
but it is still you who needs to walk through the door.
everything isnt what it seems, or is it.
maybe its in black and white
but we being us, add color
we make the simple more complex
like innovators, we change.
maybe the simple things in life
but we change our minds back and forth
to justify our choice.
anyone can influence anyone, but is it justified.
half the things we do are wants
the other half are needs.
and for some reason, our wants exceed our needs.
theres always a choice, but which is needed and which is wanted.
Everywhere I go it's new faces.
Everywhere I go its the same places.
Everything I see its black and white, faded.
Somethings wrong, I think I'm goin crazy.
I learned there's only two things that keep me content.
That means there's only four things remaining constant.
Everything I thought it was, was transparent.
Forgive me Ma but I don't belong in this quadrant.
The sergeant said find something solvent and commit to it.
What is it with the world these days.
Everyone's all work no play
I remember in my hay it used to be a little partay
We used to have a couple games and share the moment of fame
And now we just follow what the government wants, lame.
Taxes going up and we just follow rules like they the mission
Since when did livin become more of a lesson
And stop followin our dreams, everythin's blamin the recession
Maybe if cost of livin wasn't so damn high
We'd be able to remember what it was to touch the sky.
Those days weren't so long ago, when we used to be able to defy
The laws of gravity. And if we failed, we get back up and try
Try try again.
2010 is almost up and 2012 is when it's said thats gonna end.
Same story, different headline.
Everywhere I go it's new faces.
Everywhere I go its the same places.
Everything I see its black and white, faded.
Somethings wrong, I think I'm goin crazy.
Everywhere I go people wanna come in
But I don't know whether to shun em away or let them in
Cause once they come in then they feel like they win.
So shun em away and let them figure me out
Cause honestly, only those that care will try and figure me out
What ever it is that I'm about.
Things fall apart for better things to fall together, that's not true.
You don't think I tried? Trying and working are two different actions.
I tried. Apparently not hard enough.
Why do you hate me? I love you but this isn't working.
It is working, that's out of your eyes.
What isn't working? It's not our eyes.
One is the loneliest number, well now two are lonely.
I love you, I love you too.
I love you, but I don't need you to love me.
You like me, but things are different.
Open up to me, It's a blocked road.
I can't fix something I don't know is broken, You can't fix something you didn't break.
It's raining, cries to the river.
The more you give, the less you receive.
Maybe it's you. Yeah maybe it's me.
It's not me, it's you.
What is wrong with us. Love just wasn't enough.
Talk to me, I wish I could.
Talk to me, I'm misunderstood.
I don't understand, try to understand.
There's nothing you could say, There's something I could do.
Why are my words not enough? Actions speak louder than words.
Well come here and I'll kiss you. Problems don't fix from one simple kiss.
You'd be surprise how far a kiss can go. I can't do this, not here, not now.
So this is it, I guess so.
That's unfortunate, For you or for me?
For both, I'm sorry.
This hurts, yeah it will get better.
Where are you going? I'm going home.
Take me with you.
I'm going home.
I'm going to miss you.
I'm going home, and I miss you.
"Baby we've been living in sin 'cause we've been really in love
But we've been living as friends"
If people wanted to be together, than forget all the obstacles. Don't ever change for someone, change for yourself. Problems come up in relationships and break things apart. It's how you face the problem with a solution. Calm and collective during Challenge and controversy. But remember, it's not always about you. It's about that other person. You might like or love someone so much it hurts, but that doesn't mean they feel the same. You can't control someone's feelings or actions. We do what we want to do, consciously or subconsciously. It's best to be in adversity so you can face the diversity. Relationships have its toll on people, so never get too strung up on one person. Some lady in DisneyWorld told us, "You're only young once. Change isn't always a bad thing. Know as many relationships as you can before you settle, you're still young." If you like someone, go ahead and tell em'. If you don't find what you're looking for, keep trying or find something else. Depends on the kind of person you are. Heartbreak hurts. Loneliness hurts. But what in life doesn't hurt. Speak your mind, I can help. Keep smiling, even during your darkest hours.
When I finally make it home I hope that you miss me a little when I'm gone.
7 packages, 7 people, one day.
Reconciliation. Packages of reasoning and hope, short, and sweet.
Apologetic but encouraging, friendly but loving, and caring but criticizing.
7 packages to 7 people, One hope.
Rekindle, repair, restore, renovate, rehabilitate, resurrect, revamp
recreate, reactivate, recondition, re-cleanse, revive, re-enact
The bond we called friendship, family, love.
Gone from distances, gone from miscommunication. Gone from time.
Gone because the two way street suddenly has reconstruction
Gone because you were too caught up in life.
Away from home, lonely as a stray dog, I sent my love in some packages.
No one signed for my heart.
7 packages, 7 people, one idea.
I love you, or so I thought.
I cared, but you forgot.
Somewhere along the lines, our bond broke.
People only talk to those they can physically see, but they all seem blind regardless
People only talk to those who are in their everyday life style today
People only talk to those who benefit from today. Doesn’t matter about all the history, all the yesterday drama, all the past challenges
Doesn’t matter about what you did for them, or what you sacrificed.
The time, the money, the dedication it takes to build a friendship, collapses.
I love when plans work out to success, but this one completely, indescribably, totally failed
7 packages, 7 people, 7 questions left
Do you ever think about what we used to be?
Do you ever remember how I used to be there for you when you needed me most?
Do you think the replacement of me is better than what we used to be?
Do you know how it feels not to get the bond reciprocated?
Do you know how it feels to lose someone you wanted in your life?
Do you know how it feels to not be something you thought you were to someone else.?
7 packages, 7 people, 7 left scars
Looking at the times, their in my memories.
But what’s done is done, and I am gone
It wasn’t me giving out, it was you giving up
I don’t hate you, I just don’t care anymore.
To you significant 7, the way I am now, I thank you.
You created an emotionless monster.
And now I just don’t give a fuck.
7 packages, 7 people. 7 Former friends. Gone.
What I say or think is what I feel.
What I do or how I act is my choice.
You wanna hate on it, go ahead be my guest.
But before you say it’s emo,
Before you say its gay or whatever derogative words you got,
Know that it’s shit you thought.
You might be embarrassed to express yourself.
If it boosts your ego, then keep on going.
You bully fools not because you can, but so you can feel better about yourself.
You’re the narcist fool who think the world revolves around you.
You compose 95 percent of the U.S.
I ask you, what are you doing with your life.?
You sit behind the computer screen all damn day talking shit.
Tryin to make youself feel big, good, important.
But what you don’t see is your stupidity fake ass bullshit.
It’s mothafuckas like you that need the most help.
Rule #1. Never screw over your best friend. Your best friend is your bread and butter. They will be there for you threw the thick and thin in what matters. They might not be there in certain times because of the strain in their own lives. But nonetheless, if you needed them, they would be there for you. Dependable in most circumstances minus their busy life.
Rule #2. There’s a difference between theorizing and assuming. Never assume Theorizing with a friend is believing what maybe happening, a gut feeling, or a possible scenario. Theorizing is never put into another persons mind that you don’t trust. It is not the same as assuming. Assuming or assumption is a theory made and told to the public. It is the gossip that is turned to a rumor.
Rule #3. Before you panic, sit down and think about your next action. Calm and collect equals character. We often get stuck with the time, believing time is moving faster than we are. Therefore, most problems are not time related. Instead of picking for answers and getting nowhere, just sit down and think about what you should do and not what you want to do.
Rule #4. Never believe anyone other then your best friend and family members. People believe this is a pessimistic outcome in my views of life. Maybe so, maybe not. People like to exaggerate and hype up whatever it is they are saying. Sometimes they might be right, but that doesn’t mean they are always right.
Rule #5. Do not give anyone the benefit of the doubt regardless of the circumstances. I say this only because I do not like being disappointed.
Rule #6. Be the Difference. Nobody likes followers. The greatest leaders learned from previous leaders to become a leader of their own, to lead the followers. Be the difference because that’s what stands out.
Rule #7. Everyone lies. Tell me something different. Some people try not to lie, but that doesn’t mean they don’t lie.
Rule #8. People live by “Me first, you second.” Act accordingly. In most circumstances this is true. It is extremely rare to find someone who lives for the other people and themselves. The ones who are You first, me second, are extremely rare and should praise them.
Rule #9 There is an exception for every rule. The exceptions are the ones you want in your life.
Rule #10. Social networking is not the solution. Stop facebooking and Twittering all the g dang time.
Rule #11. Never do anything you do not want to do. Peer pressure is nothing. You can fight peer pressure, don’t ever be afraid to say no. Don’t be worried about what other people will think of you if you do or do not do certain things. This relates with the rule of being different, not the followers.
Rule #12 Never take anything for granted. You shouldn’t believe things will always be there. Change is constant, even people. So don’t take things or people for granted because they might not always be there. The better the friend, the more they’ll be depended on ,but never not under appreciate what you have. Be grateful.
Rule #13. Do not get in a relationship with a co-worker. It will define your work. You’ll go to work to see them, instead of working. There should be a separate work place and girl time. Most of the time it ends akward and if you break up while still working ,what becomes of work. It will make work less appealing.
Rule #14 To keep a secret, keep it to yourself. Second best? Tell one other person, if you must. There is no 3rd best. Secrets always find their ways of getting out. If you don’t tell anyone, it will remain a secret. Even best friends can go against their will and tell someone.
Rule #15. When the job is done, walk away.
Rule #16 Beware of the woman who comes to you when you are ahead. Most people, not just women, go to people when they have things the other does not have. They use people because of their position. Be aware of that person because they will use you as much as they can. Not all people do this, but some do, and those you should know about.
Rule #17 The real person is shown only through challenge and controversy. Calm and collective = character. How the person reacts to challenge and controvery will define how they really are deep down inside. The real emotions come out and speak for them.
Rule #18 Live like you are hated because in reality, only a few care. This might sound pessimistic but honestly, we all have our own lives. Close friends care about promotions, new jobs, or opportunities. Others might say they are happy for you, but in all honesty, they probably don’t care. Only a few care about your honest feelings. That’s different then people caring for your well-being.
Rule #19 Follow your heart and your heart only. Don’t listen to what other people say because it will only make you go against their wishes. Of course you should listen to the ones that matter like your parents and close friends. But in the end, it is your choice and the only one we have to blame for the results are ourselves.
Rule #20 Never listen to the outside world. Relates with being different and not following. It also has to do with following your heart. The world is not in the position you are. Acknowledge this and do what is best for you and your family, not for any other world.
Rule #21 It is better to seek forgiveness than to seek permission. I always find it better to do an act and apologize for it than to seek permission, gt denied, and do the act anyway. It adds more disappoint to the higher authority. Of course, this is all legal acts we are speaking of.
Rule #22 There is no such thing as coincidence. Things happen for a reason. Sometimes, these reasons are unexplained or ironic. But everything happens for a reason. Higher power.
Rule #24 You can forgive, but never forget. To forgive is to accept an apology. But never forget what the apology was for, because these acts can always be repeated. If not by the same person, than by a different. But you should know what may or may not happen from previous mistakes.
Rule #25 Don’t believe what you are told, unless it is from your mother. Everyone lies rule. The most persons you can trust are the ones in your family. Something about family is stronger than most friendships. But be aware, sometimes, mothers and fathers tell you things to protect you.
Rule #26 Number one prevails all. Best friends will always be there, and vice versa.
Rule #27 99 percent of the words coming out of people’s mouth is bullshit. We all like to exaggerate and hype up what actually happens. It’s our entertainment. That’s why celebrity gossip is so big. Don’t believe everything you hear, only follow the facts you know.
Rule #28 The only thing you give to a person is your word. The only thing you give to a friend is your hand. The only thing you give to your wife is your heart. Enough said.
Rule #29 Things work in this order: Best, Fam, Car, Dog, Significant. Maybe you have different priorities, but this order never seems to disappoint. We shouldn’t revolve our lives around our significant’s, things can get ugly that way.
Rule #30 Never have more than 10 friends. Friends are those who will be there in the end, not those that come and go. Those are not considered friends, but more of an acquaintance. How well the acquaintance is depends on how long you’ve known them.
Rule #31 Never leave home without your knife. For your protection and use.
Rule #32 Taking someone’s significant is a crime and will not end good in any way. Homewrecking should never occur unless the home is already wrecked. Most of the time, the person will go back to them at some point, with or without your knowledge. Morality vs Desire, Morality should win.
Rule #33 Never let a girl come in between your friendship. Too many people have already done this. People should remember where they came from and who’s been there through thick and thin. The significant should understand this, and the person should realize this. If you and that person break up, who’s there to pick you up, the significant or the friend? To make someone your world leaves your friends behind.
Rule #34 Do not worry about other people’s business. What is it with the world and gossip. Leave it alone, it does not relate with you.
Rule #35 Never rely on anyone. People have their own lives and to depend on them might be too stressful them. People will make excuses on why they couldn’t do certain things. It’s better to plan ahead and plan around than to expect someone doing what you need them to do.
Rule #36 Learn from other people's mistakes. Leader, not follower. You won’t live long enough to experience it all.
Rule #37 Actions always speak Louder than words. Silence speaks loudest. He said she said type stuff will always be smaller than actual actions. Silence is the biggest action, but be cautious. It can mean the biggest thing or smallest thing. Maybe they care, maybe they don’t.
Rule #38 Never fall for anything twice. Shame on you if you do. We are the only ones to blame for our faults and failures.
Rule #39 People are fake until proven. Don’t act like you know someone when you just met them. You don’t know what they are capable of or what they have habits of doing. You’ll be disappointed if you trust someone before you even know them. Kind of related with the word love. You don’t honestly love someone after two days.
Rule #40 They are single unless proven otherwise. What you don’t know don’t hurt.
Rule #45 Never say never, no matter how impossible it seems. There’s ways around the walls. You may give in, but never give up.
Rule #47 There is no time for bullshit. Ever. Do your work and stfu. Stop making excuses and just be yourself. None of that fake stuff in here.
There are always exceptions to rules. This is not suppose to be negative. But if you experience enough of the real world, honest people are hard to come by. Be aware of your surroundings of all times. I say don't trust people because how well do we really know someone. And even if we think we know them great, we have no faced challenge and controversy to see their real inner character. People say they're nice and selfless but in all honesty, words are only words. Actions through hard times will speak louder than anything said. Perception of something is different than the actual truth. We can not go into peoples heads, so never doubt someone. The best thing to do is stay neutral and care-free. Base things by what you know, not what you heard. Truth will always remain, even through all the lies.
These rules are for self-purposes. You might not agree with all or any of these rules. These are my rules and not necessarily yours. People should try to be the best person they can be and live for others than themselves. Calm and collective, challenge and controversy. Be easy.
When I no longer have the aspirations to start you.
When I no longer have the feeling of missing you.
When your beauty is only beauty and nothing more,
and I can live without your touch.
Your body and your curves,
The way you handle me and yourself, together
The first time I saw you I fell in love
The first time I rode you till today was always consistent, fun, and loving.
We would cruise the streets and highways together, just you and I.
You never stopped loving me.
You never gave me problems or drama
And you never put my life in danger.
They say girls like you are dangerous, and you are a risk to my life.
I don't see it that way, cause no one makes me smile like you do.
No one has made me happier then you, for this long and this consistent.
You are truly one of a kind, and have always been mine.
You never given me up for another person.
The way I feel for you, you have for me.
As long as I take care of you, you take care of me.
You are one of one, and will always be my first.
Life is a measure of happiness,
And honestly if I die with you next to me, I have lived and died the happiest.
People do not understand the importance of you in my life.
You never disappoint me like any living person.
You understand my emotions, and I understand your maintenance.
Not too low, and not too high.
When things got rough, you remained in control, and helped me through the pain.
And though the relationship has been relatively short, I love you with all my heart.
Not many things come before you.
You have give me more freedom of living than I had ever imagine.
They want me to give you up, sell you out, and leave you behind.
That will never happen cause you're a Won, and you are mine. Not theirs.
It's only me and you on the streets baby girl, no one else. You- and Me.
You don’t actually know me and I guarantee you’ve never heard of me. Maybe, just maybe, we’ve been in an enclosed radius within 5 miles of one another at some point in our lives. It could’ve happened in an airport or it could’ve happened in a 3rd world city. Who knows, maybe we’ve traveled on the same cruise ship or flew on the same flight. Either way, you’ve never met me and maybe never will.
But if you’re reading this now, it means somehow someway the meticulous idea that passed through my brains and disabled me to sleep countless of hours but on to this piece of paper has succeeded. Now before you decide to close the link, maybe you can fashion the idea of what this letter entails. Not because I am asking you but because maybe there is something here that has never been done before. There are millions of ways for celebrities to interact with normal people like myself. And though you may not be as high of a celebrity on the Hollywood E list, to hundreds of thousands of guys, you are.
I’ll start by saying a little about the situation and what exactly it is that I was thinking during the odd hours of the night. I’ll start by saying a little about myself and what it is that could intrigue you. I guess for me there is nothing to lose and only something to gain. For you, it could be an idea you can pass along to one of your directors. The only director I know, and know meaning know of, not know personally, is WongFu Productions. Those are the only guys I can think of that would try to make a screening of something like this. When I thought of the idea, I thought of it only for a personal gain. A gain for me, interacting with you. But the more i thought about it, the more I decided it could be a brilliant movie script. Of course many times the story is twisted or manipulated to make it into a love story, which isn’t exactly that of what I’m asking. Of course, I can not not pass that idea in my head like a billion dudes that have. I guess if I didn’t have that daydream, that would make me not like women.
I believe it started a few days ago on the infamous picture Instagram. I’ll say it happened on a Wednesday because that’s when #WCW is.. And although I only use IG for my pup, GS_Pwillis52 (Yes, I am a Patrick Willis fan of the 49ers), you’re amazing picture popped up on my news feed. And unlike the many times I have seen pictures, I decided to click the picture and find out who you were. The deeper I looked, the more I recognized. You were in a few movies that I have seen but didn’t knit pick at or research on IMDB. And from that Wednesday, your image has stuck in my mind since.
I guess that’s how it started. And you hear so many stories of normal people meeting celebrity-esh citizens. Most of the time, I could care less about the difference in a celebrity and a normal person. I guess looking inside the box from the outside is the norm and the inside looking out is the celebrity style. I mean, I don’t want to sound like I don’t like celebrities cause of course there are the few I wish to meet. Patrick Willis, Navarro Bowman Sean Connery, Taylor Swift, Will Smith, Chris Paul, Adele, Dj Baby Yu,Denzel Washington, Jay-Z, Kanye West to name a few. Oh and you can’t forget movie characters like Harry Stamper, Stanley Goodspeed, Lucas Scott, Brooke Davis. I’m sure you can figure out who those characters are from, being in the industry. I suppose I could’ve wrote them this letter.. But for some reason, it was you that I wanted to write this to. It’s like the Lord kept me awake to plan out this mysterious journey.
Awhile back, right around the age of 21, I went to the University of Maryland for my undergrad.I was a fool for messing around in Junior college that by the time I was 21, I said to myself, “I should be graduating college.” I used my dad as a comparison, and just like that, moved to the other side of the country. Oh by the way, I live in Sacramento, 400 miles north of Los Angeles. So, we’re residing in the same state, if that counts for something.. Anyways, back to the story. When I was on the other side of the country, away from everything that I knew, I was lonely and depressed. The only one I could talk to was the best friend, which is fine.. In a sense, that I now know who the true colors of people are. The people only talk to you when they want something.. Or they only talk to you when they know they can hang out with you.. Which isn’t a bad thing..But at the same time.. Why can’t people know people by just talking. So when I was over in Maryland with only a few friends there, and one best friend here, I thought of a pen pal. I didn’t really have anyone I could write, but there was this strong desire for a penpal. You know, old school. Where two people write back and forth via mail, using stamps instead of this technology. It’s amazing how far we come that we forget the small, simple things, that could entertain us more than our iPhones can.
So there you have it. I am writing on this blog, contacted by Twitter, to see if you would entertain the idea of being my pen pal. As lame as that sounds, and as corny as it is, I would fancy the idea of writing to you because you are a complete stranger who I want to say is intriguing in many different ways. I’m not gonna lie but I think it’s cause you have grandma type tendencies like myself. A free-spirit but homebody that enjoys new entertainment. I must say that I do enjoy movies and I do have a dream-like mind. I can tell you more of those stories later, just not the time. And since you’re like me, or so that I think, why not take a chance a write a complete stranger.
The idea of a pen pal at 3 AM sounds absurd, but if you think about it, it’s almost an encouraging, brilliant, story. A normal but unique mindsetted guy, uses Twitter to ask a celebrity, beautiful woman, to be a pen pal. And from pen pals, they write weekly to each other about their uniquely different lives. How one, is inspired to become a successful actress, while the other, is trying to find his place on Wall Street. And they ask each other different things about the different lifestyles.. How the girl is surrounded by technology, flashing lights, drooling men. How the boy is surrounded by family, the world’s economy, and personal hobbies. And if you really want to go HollyWood like that movie idea; How the two become close friends via letters and eventually meet in each of their cities. Talk to each other on the phone and Okay, maybe I won’t go that route cause that just sounds plain silly and it makes me sound crazy. But you get the picture. Wow, that does sound like a brilliant movie script waiting to happen.
I haven’t really tried the movie script technique out as I don’t really like writing : [Girl Enters Room] “Words here “ I just enjoy writing what is on my mind. I can assure you that I am a very nice, genuine person that’s not going to go ape shit or stalker zombie. Wow, can’t believe I put those two kinds of people together. Haha, but nah. I’m a genuine person who lives in fairytales and unrealistic movie plots. I guess I’ve come to reality during my older days, but still have some ideas in my head. I’d love to share them if you were a pen pal but I guess I’ll have to wait and see if I intrigued you enough.
So if you’re down with the idea, you’re down. If not, I completely understand. I know that it would be very trusting to give an address to a complete stranger and it’s a weebit crazy. I suppose the pen pal writings could start from e-mails and work their way down. Haha, I just thought, guy writes the girl via email, but the girl writes the guy via mail.. Just because she doesn’t trust him cause she’s a celebrity, and he doesn’t care about her knowing where she’s writing to. Oh I see how it is, I guess that means I’ll give a different address like a P.O Box. Nah, I’ll just give you my work address. Please don’t come stalk me. Lol, just kidding.
So I guess I’ll give this a shot. My name is Jason. I was born in 1987 so I’m not relatively old.. I’m just not that young. I was born and raised in Sacramento, California. Lived at home all my life until I was 21. Played multiple sports; Basketball, Tee Ball, Soccer, Volleyball. I like to think I’m athletic but in my older day, I’m not quite too sure. After I moved to Maryland, I decided to start a blogspot, which is where this letter was found. I started it for two reasons. One, Like I said before, my friends weren’t really friends, and they only wanted to talk to me if I was in Sacramento physically. And this was a way to get out my frustration and vent. Two, I wanted to share photos of my relatives in Maryland with my family in Sacramento (my mother’s side lives in Maryland and that’s who I resided with).That’s where the hobby of photography came in. Bought a fisheye lens before the camera, and eventually bought a Nikon D80 from Craigslist. My close friend also began photography and purchased a bunch of lights.. You know, the kind you’re used to taking pictures with. Alienbees and beauty dishes, the whole nine. I ‘m sure you can see all of my past writings and photographs on this blogspot. Maybe it’ll help you feel more comfortable and know that I’m not some crazy dude. I only ask that if you read, start from the beginning and work your way up. That would really be appreciated .. Don’t ask me why, I’m weird like that.
Anyways, when I returned home, I looked for a full time job to no avail. I graduated with a pre-law degree, believing I wanted to be a lawyer or a cop. Turns out, I missed my cop opportunity in Maryland and I hate reading a bunch of vague documents. It’s weird, I enjoy reading but nothing of importance or in the moment. I guess, movie scripts would be different. Any who, I kept the blog and published them into books after every year. This past year, I published all of the writings and gave it to my mother for Christmas. It is now going through my entire family, being passed around like a novel. Oh, I’ve also wanted to write a novel. I tried writing one but it’s somewhat terrible. Or so that’s what this reviewer said on a public forum. He said my grammar was poor, which isn’t completely true. I just don’t like going back and editing things that I wrote. Instead, I like to just get my idea out, give it to someone to edit, and then publish. I guess that’s why nothing has ever been published because I’ve never had anyone edit. Hey, if we’re pen pal’s, maybe you can help me edit! Haha jk I wouldn’t want to do that to you.
I guess I could’ve waited before writing the last two paragraphs. Maybe I should’ve made it dramatic and told you, say “Yes” and send it here. That way when I receive in the mail an empty envelope with the words, “Yes,” it’d be climatic and mind blowing. Lol but I didn’t.. I guess I should stop second guessing myself and just hope that you actually write.
How do you tell a story in which has never been told.
How do you grasp a day after all it has unfold.
They say the best gift in life is the unexpected
The best surprise is the surprise unexpected.
But what is it called when an unplanned plan works out.
One of the ideas in your head that’s never supposed to come out.
An opportunity, with a beautiful person seen, but never met.
A friend of your relative, but you two haven’t collided yet.
Once the encounter, we speak of common interest and goals.
We admit to fun, but we acknowledge we’re getting old.
She lives 3000 miles away to visit for one weekend.
The time isn’t forever ,one that I wish would never end.
But as the night grows colder and we become a little closer,
The night is ready to retire as the moon is growing older.
Life has its way of finding its best moments
Feelings are flying, “Everything” is taking over our emotion.
As we share the clearless, star-lit sky, holding each other
WE look at the bright city lights, as one, together.
You look at me, I look at you, somehow you and I engage lips.
You have the softest lips, the lips that gave me the best kiss.
We grunt, we moan, we grieve,
Because we both know it’s time to leave.
Why does she live 3000 miles away.
Why is today the last day we must part ways.
You miss your flight, and I’ll skip the first of school just to be with you.
Nothing is as important as this time with you.
She was as beautiful as anything I have ever laid my eyes on.
She was the hero who came from zero
Just in one day no stock market has seen these gains
No celebrity has grown this over night fame.
If we were in Vegas, I would have proposed.
Or so I thought, you were my beloved.
How do you grasp a day after all that has been unfold
All this time, this story has never been told.
It must be because you left me, left me out in the cold.
The hopeless romantic strikes again
Only to his masterpiece come to an end.
When there’s only one night, it’s time to go all out
Because Hopeless romantic is what I was about.
Thank you all for the wonderful birthday wishes. You all made my day feel warm and delicious. Where do II start with. Well, the night before was a great night because my parents flew in from Sactown to attend a meeting (dad's meeting) in Baltimore. Meanwhile, my mother and II grabbed dinner at Fleming's, a steak house which had some good fillet Mignon. My dad was available to attend the first half of dinner, pay the bill, and cut.
The next day, the actual day of my birthday/ Thursday the 28th of October, II headed to the airport. On the plane, it was bittersweet. II was flying to Utah to meet up some of my great new friends from Korea to reunite our friendship. But it was also sad cause my parents were spending the entire weekend visiting the rest of the family back in Maryland. The plane ride itself was weird as well..Being disconnected away from the whole world while it's your birthday.
Utah. Man, where do II start. How does one weekend feel so accomplished? II don't think accomplished is the right word cause II didn't get anything productive (school-wise) done... But man, what an awesome weekend! II spent most of the weekend with the Christian's.II met their whole (okay liek 1/5) of the family. They were very nice, sweet, and generous caretakers for this abnormal kid. For their son's birthday and mine, they cooked some nice pasta with vegetables. For dessert, we had the best chocolate cake and apple pie. Both were home-made, and both were really delicious.
The next day, II attended Utah Valley University where the chicks are pretty eye-catching and iridescent. They kept lookin at me like they never seen an asian guy. II did happen to see a couple asians though. After that, Shaun and II went to Target to purchase the Taylor Swift CD (His birthday gift II gave him). We got free Shakes for our birthdays too. Shaun and II then decide to play some some vintage Madden 2007 on Xbox... No, not 360...Xbox. Sweet! Guess who won. Yah Boy! So then, Shaun tells me to play Jacob (Brittney and Shaun's younger brother) . II thought II was gonna get my butt handed cause that's all Jacob plays, but guess who won again! haha. Yeah, Jacob was talking smack about Vernon Davis and how Antonio Gates was better.. Shame on him. Alex Smith was Alex Smith we should've had.. But yeah.. Later we went to dinner at Brittney's sister house for her youngest son's 1 year old birthday. We had pizza and chips. My sister Kimmie also flew in around the same time... After the party, we went back to the house to watch Iron Man.
Saturday, we met up with the rest of the Utah Peace Makers, Sarah, Jeremy, Steve and Scott. The four of us met the rest of the crew at....mmmm forgot the place. Haha But after we went to the capital to take some pictures and visit Salt Lake City. At night, the Christian's held a big party for halloween. II was Tim Lincecum/Superman for halloween. For most of the night, II hung out with Jacob and his young friends around the campfire. The rest of the party watched Charades and played board games..
The next day we went to church and had a big feasted lunch. My sister and II enjoyed our time in Utah learning about the Latter Day Saint religion and our friends huge family. We learned a lot about Utah as well. Hopefully, one day, we'll go back.. Here's a video II made for them that you can view.
Dude...they took out my audio cause it had too much taylor. DANG it.
The next weekend, November 4th through November 7th, II was able to go to NYC via Bus to visit my parents once again. This trip was awesome as well. II got to catch up with Derek Andrew Wong, an old CCC fellow baller. We haven't seen each other for at least 10 years. It was so awesome to hang with him for a day in NYC. His mother, cousin, and him were in NEw York for Derek's job interviews. Fortunately, the timing was perfect. His last day was his most free day. My mom and II were able to eat lunch with his mom and him. He introduced me to Uniqlo, a Japanese H and M type store. Bought a couple V necks. We met up later that night to hang out and roam the NYC streets. II showed him the spot II discovered years ago. We also caught up with each other and our families.
Saturday, another reunion with a friend and his girlfriend. David has rotations (eye-doctor) in New Jersey and was able to have the weekend off. Ashley and David both came to visit NYC . David and II roamed the NYC streets, looking for things to do. We had the best NYC pizza, saw the 26 mile finish line (race the following day), and pretty much anything else you can do in NYC. Ashley and my parents later met up with us to go to City Lobster for dinner. II did some project work with my dad as well. Finally, II took Ash and David to the spot too.. They say it's an 8 point place, where II believe it's a 10. But hey, I'm single, so who knows. II enjoy my spot so it's all good.
Overall, the last two weekends were amazing. II am very fortunate and grateful for the wonderful friends and opportunities they have given me. It is always nice to see familiar faces and catch up with old friends. II miss lots of people and wish everyone would take time out of the day to catch up. Unfortunately, we all have our own lives. Thank you everyone who has taken the time to see or talk with me, especially when the times are tough. Know that II am always here for each and everyone of you, even if you hate me..
Happy birthday to my homie Kyle.. And my home girl Ivy.. (II got to see her in NY for a brief second!)
Oh, II also met a new friend, Richard. He works at the Crowne Plaza Hotel in Times. Enjoy the photos and video!
GO GET THE TAYLOR SWIFT CD!!! IT IS AWESOME!!!! (Get it at Target for the bonus cd..yeah II made that mistake.)
Lebron went to Miami, deal with it.
Stop the racial slurs.
Stop the hating. It wasn't your choice, it was his choice.
Am II a Lebron fan? I am a Sports fan.
Did II want him joining Wade, 49-51. II rather of had D Wade play LBJ.
Do II mind him on the Heat? No.
What is it with people being disrespectful of someones decision.
Live with it.
Lebron did not do anything to YOU but give you entertainment.
LBJ and D Wade are close friends, so why would it be wrong to join your close friends and play the game you love.
As much as I love Jordan, he didn't leave cause he had Scottie.
Jordan tried doing it by himself and fell short.
Michael asked who was 2nd best in the NBA when he was in his prime, "Scottie Pippen."
So you tell me, why would JOrdan leave when he was teamed with the 2nd best player.?
Would he still win without Scottie? At best, one.
Why discredit LBJ because he left his team to another?
The way he went about it wasn't the best, but you can't knock a guy for donating to charity.
LBJ and all other super athletes are very talented and the way they choose to use their talent is their choice. Stop Hating.
Kanye West may be an asshole, but you can't knock him for trying to change.
Kanye's music way too good to ignore.
Kanye is one of the few musicians BEYOND music.
He is an artist.
Don't believe me, go read the XXL magazine that featured his writing.
He'll amaze you with more than his rhymes, this guy has a vision.
He's starting to make movies, which have been appraised by many critics.
He's developed a clothing line, he's taken pictures, he's directed art events.
And is he stopping when he expresses himself? No.
The Taylor Swift thing is over with. ASshole move? Yes.
Apologetic ? Yes
Get over it.
This guy has given free music for the last 6 weeks, which most music lovers enjoy.
But yet, people still wanna knock him.
That's what you call a hypocrit. A phoney, a fake.
Instead of loving the guy and supporting the guy, they hate.
NFL League, why do you enforce such strict rules?
No more great Touchdown Celebrations is just wrong.
Players can't express themselves.
And now, NFL ban helmet to helmet and more crucial fines for big hits.
Safety is a key to this game, but really, you're tying the players hands behind their back.
What's funny is, it's a bunch of league officials who makes millions of dollars trying to control players too much.
II would not be surprised if anyone leaves the NFL because of this.
Safety is key, but the players know exactly what they signed up for.
These are what the big contracts are for in sports.
II really think, if it was possible, if ii could form an NFL based league, a lot of players would come. haha
Steve Jobs needs to come out with the iPhone for Verizon already.
San Francisco 49ers finally got a win vs the Raiders. Yay.
San Francisco Giants are hot baby, and I'm sportin Tim Lincecum 3000 miles away.
Buster Posey is ROY hands down.
Cody Ross has been so big.
II hope the Rangers beat the Yankees.
Look at all the bandWAGON kids there are. Please name five players from and some statistical data to back your reasoning up.
I'm sure more then 80 percent of the fans haven't seen at least 2 regular season games. Hater? yes.
How can some schools get a FALL break?
I'm glad the 33 miners are all healthy and livin.
Sports are the best thing to live entertainment you'll ever get cause it's non scripted.
"I can let these dream killers kill my self esteem or use my arrogance as steam to power my dreams." Haters.
You realize most people are out of sight, out of mind, who forget to call.
The friends you thought who would keep in touch with, don’t
And instead of calling or texting them, you don’t.
Because you don’t want to bother them cause you and they have their own lives now.
It doesn’t help not being able to see them, even if you had a car, cause they’re a plane ride away.
You try to replace them with materialistic items or new people.
You purchase new things to keep you occupied.
You attend events you’d never attend, just to stay busy.
You attempt at participating in extracurricular activities to pass the time.
Or you try studying in public places to keep yourself out there.
Sooner or later, you’ll start meeting new people, making new friends.
But you realize most of the new ones can’t replace the old.
So you keep to yourself, you do your own thing.
You rent movies or watch TV shows to entertain yourself.
You put headphones in your ears and walk around with sunglasses hiding your eyes.
You’re afraid people will question, “What’s wrong with them?”
You do your own thing because you know the only reason you’re supposed to be there is for school, not a social life.
You know this was your choice and your desire.
But how can such a desire turn out to be such a lonely path.
They say you make your own, you do your own.
But sometimes we don’t want our own to be alone.
They say blood is thicker than water,
All you need is family, and friends will come and go.
Guess they never realized you need both to survive.
So some days you’ll like it, some days you’ll get by.
Then there will be the days where you’re really bad and really down.
The toughest days are the longest.
And some days you’ll get to see home, if you’re lucky.
But until then, everyone's out of sight and out of mind.
Is there a problem with society or is there a problem with me?
There s a large amount of poverty in the world, homeless and starving. Yes?
The richest people in the world has enough money to create an environment for decent living conditions. There are companies in the world who have the ability to make foods or ship foods to feed the millions, yes? So why is the world still poor?
Is it the fault of the individuals who are grown in to poverty, and do not escape it?
Or is it the fault of us, labeling them as no good poverty people who have no lives to look forward to?
Maybe its nature, you know competition?
Is there a problem with the White House or is there a problem with me?
The health reform for the entire United States is great, to think about it. We are all about to have it, great right? Wrong. Yeah the States will have it, but at the price of the working people. It is nice that everyone can have free health care, but it is not nice that everyone will have it with only the working class paying for it. Oh, you didn’t know? Yeah, check the reform and read about the taxes. On top of that, the various of companies will be fined for an X amount of employees, therefore making companies cut employees. If you didn’t know now, this country just came out of a recession, meaning we do not have enough jobs. Now you’re going to fine the companies for having too many employees because they don’t want to pay their benefits?
Is there a problem with Verizon or is there a problem with me?
Apple wants to be on Verizon, Verizon doesn’t want Apple because they feared of Apple overrunning their market. Instead, Apple went to At&t and are now overrunning the population of cellular phones with iPhones. You know, Verizon thinks they found the solution with Android based Phones. Yeah, I have one, and it sucks balls. I’ll be very impressed if they’re able to make their phones better then Apple. It’s like Reebok imitating Nike shoes…you remember, the hit Air Force Ones or Dunks by Nike, being replicated by Reebok with a Reebok logo..Yeah, those sucked.
Is there a problem with society, or is there a problem with me?
Too many people are too depended on technology. Yes we all have it, and love it. I admit, I love it and use it too. But, what if the technology just went to the shiz…Who knows how to survive? It’s nice to have but seriously, people need to stop being on their cell phones 24/7, checking Facebook and Twitter just because they are able to. I bet you today, half the world aren’t able to travel to and from places with out using their memory…Instead they use the GPS.
Is there a problem with people, or is there a problem with me?
Good people are hard to come by. The people are hypocritical with closed minds. The people make promises they can’t keep. They make choices without think the consequences. They make checks they can’t cash, messages they can’t deliver.
Is there a problem with the media, or is there a problem with me?
Why does the media always have to exploit individuals, celebrity or everyday people. Sure, News is nice and informative. But to make stories about people by just a picture. To jump to conclusions about individuals because one simple action without interviewing the actual individual involved with the circumstance, the media jump to conclusion about what might have happened..Like they know what was happening. It’s okay to analyze the information given by proof, but is it okay to bring it to society’s attention? Want an example? Tiger Woods.
Is there a problem with individuals or is there a problem with me?
We all have our own lives, therefore making it hard to keep in touch with different individuals. But if someone calls you, is there a problem on why you can’t call them back If someone texts you, is there a problem with individuals that can’t text back? Are they too busy before they go to sleep to reply?
Is there a problem with society or is there a problem with me?
Physical appearance means everything in this world. If you’re beautiful and talented you can become a celebrity by just Youtubing yourself over the web or Myspace. But what if you’re talented and skilled, but ugly? Think you’ll get to the same level as the other individual? Tell me one person who is talented and ugly. And by ugly, I mean not attractive at all.
Might not agree with any of this. Just thought I’d share some sight on various of topics in the world today. Some of these topics seem to be a problem…Others just seem to be an opinion. Haven’t had anyone to talk to in awhile, so I thought I’d write it down. Not that any of this would be any topic of discussion. Honestly, I think a lot of people are blinded by what they have in front of them.
