21.9.13

B Gone.


That's it. We're done. Past, present, future, gone. The lingering friendship is cut. You and I exist no more. The things we had, only a memory. And that is the only thing that's left.


The things once admired are now a poison. You don't exist to me anymore. You've left your mark and I have that scar. You abused my self esteem, after I tried time after time to reconnect.

It's clear to see that I am not of importance and I am of no value to you. You brush me off like a piece of lint and you treat me like dirt. The once mesmerizing smile, The nice sweet pillow talk doesn't affect me anymore. I can see past your beauty and I can see in those eyes, the only thing for me from you is those same little lies. I wanted to believe you'd change, I wanted to believe you thought of me different. Just as I thought of you as different.  But it's clear to me now, I am just Some other guy. It's time for you to be just some other girl that I used to know.

I made the mistake of putting you on the special list, circle of trust, enclosed palm. You knew my closest friends and you met my immediate family. I thought you were special and I thought you appreciate that. But if you don't treat me equal and fair, or see me like I see you. Why should I give you anything different?

Even if I labeled you a friend, what friend doesn't help when they need a favor. What friend doesn't text back, and what friend doesn't acknowledge their existence. Are you ashamed or are you that blind? Are you in pain or are you just lame.  From day 1, I was always the same.

I only wanted the best for you and I only wanted to help where I could. When we had our time where I brought genuine happiness, You wanted materialist items, you wanted a king. And although I could've provided things you'd only dream of, You ran away chasing something you couldn't have. No one ever told you what to do and that's how it should be, But no one ever told you he played you , times 3.

And when I stayed to watch the castle burn, I tried to stay and be a supportive fire man. Yet you never saw me trying to save you. You only cared about your mischievous job and your attitude way. It was me who always knew, you were better than that.  It was me that always told you, You're more than that. It was me that would've given you anything.

I guess it's true what they say. The blind lead the blind. Just as the filthy stay filthy. I did the best I could and I tried the hardest I would. Whether it was to be or not to be, it was always in your best interest. It was always so you could have a go to man.

You don't know what you have until it's gone. And you won't miss me until it's too late. They warned me of girls like you. The ones that seek attention, the ones that don't text back. The ones that smile because they want something. Yeah, I fell for that.

All those late night rendezvous, the drives to your house. The slow jams, the texts. The blame of me for your relationship fights. The nosy curiosity, The best v day. It was all for nothing, just like I am to you. You might win some but you lost one.

I would've given you the world and everything in between. Whatever you wanted would have been yours. And I would've asked nothing in return. One day, you'll grow up, and you'll finally see. I'm the one that got away.

You don't have to text you don't have to call. No more meet ups, no more dinner dates. You won't have to worry about me texting you to rendezvous. After all those flakes and after all those put ups, I should've known you'd only let me down. Just like a parent of their ashamed kid, It's time to look the other way.  So I'll do me a favor, cause clearly you succeeded in pushing me away. You never knew what it felt like to be on the other side. Well, Now's your chance, deuces.