My early birthday gift from my older sister. One I'll never forget. She has midterms this week so I had to fly solo to the T swift Concert. A little awkward talking to some mom's and fifteen year old daughters. But all worth it. =] Just the second concert of my life... next to Usher. Some home girls are jealous, other homies call me gay. I just have this thing for g.o.o.d music.
Note. I wasn't able to get Speak Now and You Belong with me cause I was saving my sister's cameras battery life.. And my phone somehow deleted Back to December/Apologize/You're not Sorry <-- Damn great one too.
I recommend watching., How to save a Life. Enchanted. Haunted. Love Story (she flew over me).
Do you remember being in love.
Everything you ever wanted in the palm of your hand.
The thing you searched high and low for.
Despite the multiple heart breaks and heart-aches.
With one night stands and little flings nothing but history.
Do you remember the time where there was something to look forward to.
The one hour trips just to see their face,
Surprise visits just to make their day better.
Middle of the night phone calls just to hear their voice,
even though you had work in the morning.
The Smile. The laughs. The moments.
Multiple meals, Breakfast, lunch and Dinner.
Can’t forget the special trips to restaurants just for Dessert.
You brought around your place, your friends, your family.
The parents loved them just as much as you did.
Remember the movies, the drives, the spots.
The mini-vacations that were a couple hours away that lasted a weekend.
And then there was a promotion to
The vacations with relatives that lasted weeks.
Can’t forget Thanksgivings where the debate was your family or theirs.
Same thing with Christmas..
What to get them for Christmas was always the hard one.
The experience, the emotion, the bond.
Everything you led had a follower.
Everything they led, you followed.
Experiencing new things because it interested them, unexpected.
Support, acknowledgement, incorruptible.
The fact of missing somebody other than your family and best friend.
The feeling of being loved.
Your life, completed by one simple word.
Everything, for that time and place, fit.
The better half of you.
Do you remember being in love?
Beyond a moment is an emotion captured entirely through ones heart like a video camera records a video of ones heart. A feeling of unspoken characteristics in your inner self felt before yet different in aspects you simply can’t explain. History has replayed similar videos in your mind but nothing quite like this can be remembered as so Enchanting. From that rare moment, a thought, a picture, a tune reminds you of the exact feeling you don’t want to go away, diminish or end. And every time a flash of history enters your mind, you can’t help but cheese because it feels like Christmas all over again. Hoping that history is not in repeat of younger days, you sit to think, you sit to wait. Life is a masterpiece structure built by your own mind and hands, yet special others will share their own building blocks to contribute with your life architectural project piece. The blueprints are made in your mind yet drafts often become mute when the possibility of someone special walking into your heart.
Nothing can prepare you or plan you for such a dominant, off-guarded entrance. Yet the feeling that you feel has some charisma and relevance of mutual satisfaction and glory. The curiosity in character and beauty intrigues the uniqueness and fine composition of nothing less than a compatible counterpart. [I know we here together, so it must be something special. You could be anywhere you wanted, but you decided to be here with me. No coincidence it was meant to be.]You don’t want to get your hopes up in fear of the bigger in disappointment. But how can this emotion, this endeavor, be in your mind and in your heart, without warning or prior knowledge. When two worlds come together, it can be the most random, craziest story ever imagined but there comes a time when things in Hollywood actually come true. No script, no book, no story, can simplify such an emotion where someone’s presence takes you, your breath, and your smile away to further heights never memorized nor available. These kinds of things don’t come around as often as you think, nor do they come when you ask of them to. You constantly pinch yourself, wondering if you are dreaming in bed because things are too good to be true. And after you realize that the dream you have been living is your reality, you become speechless, awestruck, and enchanted.
You become afraid of the thought of being disappointing and nothing interesting to the wants and needs they standardize. Please don’t be in love with someone else, please don’t have somebody waiting on you whispers between your ears as if it’s just built you up to bring you down. But you’ve come too far now, it’s either time to return back the way you came, or jump and take that leap of faith. Although two worlds may be too far, too far apart, you question if patience for the opportune, gracious moment, is wrong or right. You’re too shy to ask, but too proud to lose. If actions each have its consequences, then leaving without a consequence is a pity and a defeated disappointment. Good conscious or bad conscious, what one do you choose in such an important, impacting, inquisition that has the infinite possibility of happiness. Things can’t be how they seem, or can they. Friends say, ‘why do you do this for,’ when they should be living knowing, ‘Why not.’ There is nothing else that you wanna say because by now they can tell you want it more than anything. If you walk away and just let them leave, they'll be stuck in your head like a melody.
The craziest things we do for the dumbest reasons might not be all that dumb if the things we do come straight from the inner part of our hearts. Musicians and songwriters create melodies and songs with words of importance, attitude, and truth. Music equals love equals life. When you listen to thousands of songs that are good, try listening to a good song that speaks your emotion, and you’ll realize it’s simply … speechless. If our souls composed a tune, our hearts composed a melody, and our eyes sang some words, it would sound a little bit like this.
This was the very first page, not where the story ends.
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again.
These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too song.
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you.
Went to the Rockies Giants Game and Gold County this weekend.
Food for thought:
Giants swept the Rockies, can they sweep everyone else?
Red Socks better not blow the wildcard.
If I had to choose between Tom Brady or Patrick Willis...Don't put me in that position.
Music; Songs are good, but when you relate to them their great.
I'm writing a book.
Going to add even more rules.
How do people keep phones for two years +? I can't even imagine how I'm going to keep this iphone4 that long. The last eight years, I always bought a new phone before the contract was up....lol
Song Picks of the month: Adele_One and Only, Lil Wayne_How to love, Taylor Swift_Enchanted,
Usher ft Beyonce_Love in the Club part 2,
Quote of the Month: "I broke my own rule, started to give a fuck. Now we're in some deep shit and I wanted to see what you guys had to say about it, that's all" L.T Waters
Thought of the Month:
My life is up in the air...Completely up in the air.
Topic of the Month:
Opportune moments. "I like those moments, I like to wave at them as they pass by" C. J. Sparrow
Aside from the pre-meditated and the pre-determined.
There comes a time of doing things without thinking,
Without regard, without remorse, without reflection.
Instead, the act is on the here, the now,
The opportunity, the moment, the once in a lifetime.
To believe, this doesn't happen all that much.
Or there hasn't been anything like this before.
But, it is a want, a desire, an exceptional endeavor.
Some call it the best things in life.
Others call it stupidity and a waste.
Either one will suffice depending on the circumstance,
The party, the person, and the cost.
Every action has a consequence,
Every desire has a cost.
But at what cost does this become relevant and acceptable.
The act of impulse over takes us, only throwing out the rules.
Impulsive behavior, Peer Pressure.
The obligation to act, unintentionally.
Accidentally.
Is it because it is limited, being now or never.
Or is it impatience, something that makes us believe,
This one hasn't been done before.
"We are going to get it sometime, might as well be now."
Maybe it's for the surprise, not only to ourselves but to everyone else.
The best gifts in life are surprises.
Could it be for the adrenaline rush, a high, a feeling unexplained only felt.
Somewhere, deep down inside, there is a voice, screaming for freedom.
Yelling its lungs out, hoping to find some kind of peace, some kind of purpose.
A necessity, no.
An attraction, of course.
Regretful, Ask yourself the next month, the next year, the next five.
We make rash decisions because we believe it will make us happy.
We believe that purchasing an item on the spot will take away the pain.
Retail therapy.
With Power comes responsibility,
Maturity is the wisdom.
The measure of a person is not about what they have,
The measure of a person is what they could have, but don't.
They don't act on impulse.
Think before you act.
Irrational activity results in irrational productivity.
Find a purpose. Conquer priorities.
Living in regret is regretting life.
You must learn to follow before you can lead.
You must care for yourself before you can care for others.
Love comes only after you cry.
Live life, before you die.
The valley of feeling is worse than the valley of death.
To live in fear is to live with doubt.
Failure isn’t an act, it’s a shortage.
Shadows don’t feel pain.
Emotions overcome concrete plans.
Music feels more than love.
Loving in action is not loving in word.
Driving needlessly is the only settling.
Lost with no destination.
Character isn’t seen in good times.
Disappointments are a given.
Understanding is never looking back..
Flying further than a runway.
Lying isn’t anything less than the truth.
Free fall in space.
Sanity doesn’t exist.
Fake til proven.
Tears are a reminder of history.
Honesty comes from the parenting.
Forgiveness isn’t an action, it’s a mistake.
Hang up the shoes. Walk, don’t run.
Dedication isn’t a desire, it’s needed.
A bag of chips is filled with air.
Reach for the sky is more than a jump.
One of a kind beats any quads.
Defeat isn’t a loss, it’s a sacrifice.
Built up feeling is a heart waiting to break.
Circles never break
Nothing is space with no stars.
Never again.
You ever get that feeling when you talk to someone for the second time.
There’s something about this person, something different.
You never thought a world like this existed.
The most beautiful sunset is sitting next to you, smiling.
Not because your funny, or cute, but because she is having the time of her life.
Much more than her smile is contagious.
The way she thinks, the things she does, the life she lives.
Her strength enables your weakness.
Excitement is an understatement of feeling that is felt just by one single thought of her.
Does the curiosity of the mind ever stop itself from controlling your body.
You've been on my mind,
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time,
Just thinking of your face,
God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go,
You're the only one that I want,
I don't know why I'm scared,
I've been here before,
Every feeling, every word,
I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try,
To forget your past and simply be mine,
I dare you to let me be your, your one and only,
Promise I'm worth it,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me the chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,
If I've been on your mind,
You hang on every word I say,
Lose yourself in time,
At the mention of my name,
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close,
And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go?
I don't know why I'm scared,
'Cause I've been here before,
Every feeling, every word,
I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try,
To forget your past and simply be mine,
I dare you to let me be your, your one and only,
I promise I'm worth it, mmm,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me the chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,
I know it ain't easy giving up your heart,
I know it ain't easy giving up your heart,
Nobody's pefect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
Nobody's pefect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
Nobody's pefect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
Nobody's pefect,
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart),
Trust me I've learned it,
So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only,
I promise I'm worth it,
To hold in your arms,
So come on and give me the chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts,
Come on and give me the chance,
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile,
Until the end starts.
Everything isn't as it seems as scene on the cinemas.
We have minimum meaningless relationships to temporary pleasure us.
The Friendships aren't what we live for,
Relationships are what we die for.
You can't erase what's happened, only affect what will happen.
The memories of love, memories of laughin.
Nobody can take away this feeling.
We have these ideas formed from movie scenes
In our best efforts, we re-create these moments in our dreams.
We live in a reality where dreams become real.
And we capture these moments to create such a feel.
Live in the moment because no one can take the moment away.
No matter where we are, when it is, we can re-live the moment anyway.
Yet it's not what we did, or what was said.
It's who we were with, and the feeling that will never go undead.
Is life about the moments that take our breath away.
Or is it the long run of love experienced everyday.
But what if the world only gave us one.
What if we were never in for the long run.
Only lived in the moments made speciality.
These moments were our only reality.
It's not who you know, or who you met.
It's who made you feel the way you felt.
We take it all in, re-living in the moment, Treasuring the feeling.
We evaluate, think, re-think the value of its meaning.
These are what we die for, this is what life's about.
The only ones who've stayed when the world walks out.
The only thing keeping you moving,
Is the only thing keeping you going.
Living in the moment, living the moment for life.
Part II.
They ask, why do you do it for?
Put yourself through this much pain and suffer.
Live in regrets or Kill the worst efforts.
Living a life of fiction, hopeless romantic.
Romanticizing something in fake, Making real what isn't.
Creating scenes in life like they were meant for a Hollywood movie scene.
Raise our morality, raise our self esteem. And live out these dreams.
Writing dialogue between two people as if it's already happening.
Trying to put onto paper the feeling of living.
Because this living feeling is the only alive feeling.
Realism is reality but much of it's gone unseen.
You Kill these dreams, you kill my self esteem.
Everyone has their own history, their own stories.
But what isn't alive now are just vague memories.
What if you could make the memories internally
Turn a story of glory to live eternally.
That's what features our desire for the cinemas
Chasing our goals, living our dreams, pleasure us.
It shows us a glimpse of what the feeling is
Haven't felt the feeling of in love.
Only the feeling of being loved and to love.
You see, people will come, people will go.
Only love we know of is seen in tv shows.
Past relationships are past failures.
One night stands are one nights pleasures.
Nothing matters when There's only one treasure.
Dreams are only thing that make your world
Feel the pleasure of knowing your treasure girl.
Living in fantasy, there's no limit of your excitement,
Living in reality, there's only fact of disappointment.
Your hopes, your soul, your dream, It's indestructible
And everyone in it, everything apart of your wishes, incorruptible.
Part III.
You've been here before, and you know how this goes.
You question their motives, their morales, their character.
You've seen this approach before, and it never worked.
Yet something oddly feels strangely different.
In every scenario in every dream, the dialogue you made was good.
But every time you talk in reality, the dialogue is even better.
This one is different.
Everything you did before, whether good, bad, or ugly, doesn't matter.
And Life is just that much better, knowing there's such a person who exists.
In your dream, you plan every little thing you hope will happen.
But this isn't a dream anymore, this is your life.
One day, a person will walk into your life unexpectedly and will change your life forever.
I truly believe that there's one person who captures your heart from one simple hello.
From that moment on, a feeling, a feeling you've never experienced, takes over your body.
As your relationship grows, the more you grow fond of them.
The more words they speak, the less you dislike about them.
The more acts they do, the less you'll doubt yourself.
You can't put into words how this person makes you feel.
It feels sort of like flying.
You just know, this is the one. The only.
And when you find this person, you fight like hell for them.
You do things you never thought were possible in your genes,
You try things you thought you never try.
It's not the give and take, or the pull and give.
It's the sacrifice wanted to be taken in order to fulfill their desires.
Their character and morality inspires you to become a better person.
They push you to the limits you thought you never could reach.
You do things not because you want to, but because they would want you to.
It's waking up every morning next to them, only wishing to go back to bed again.
Never did you think such a person of beauty and grace exist.
Their dedication to their friends and family,
Along with their hard work and community service.
The sweetest honey in the world couldn't measure up to them.
Not even your dreams could add up to this one.
The script was perfect, the movie was beautiful.
Reality is living your dream.
Let me tell you something you already know.
When this person walks in your door, take that chance you never took.
Sometimes we miss on grand opportunities because we are afraid of what might happen.
You never know what might happen.
If this was that one person that changed your life forever, wouldn't you risk it all.
Because you sure as hell don't want to be living knowing they're there.
You will have it bad like Usher all damn day.
Don't think about getting shot down because if it was meant to be, it would be.
Risk it all, put your heart on the line, fight for the cause, even if it could be lost.
Sometimes, knowing of failure is better,
Sometimes, the beauty is in the attempt.
It's not about finding that perfect person, It's passing up the perfect one for the best one.
The best ones are the ones you work for.
Only you know what you want, only you can stop yourself from capturing it.
It might've been a long journey, but once you get there.
You are there.
Where your dreams, became your reality.
Please email me jjwon3@gmail.com cause I would love to hear from you.
Denver is one chill cityyyy.
Studying may take shorter than planned =]
If you ever need to vent or need something, hit me up. Miles away, but one phone call away.
Give me something to write about!
Criticism always welcome. Almost been three years going strong!
New Rules
Rule #42 Always go Big or Go home – Don’t even think about going home.
Rule # 43 Dj Baby Yu will always brighten the mood.
One chance. One shot.
That's all we want. Just one time.
One opportunity. That's all we'll Get.
If we don't grab onto ourselves, time will pass us by.
We take life for granted, always believing we'll be given another chance.
Life isn't about the opportunities given, it's about the opportunities taken.
It's not that we won't get multiple opportunities with similar things,
We only get one chance with that one thing we most want in life.
One thing. One person. One change. One job. One life.
It's our job not to mess it up.
Everyday we are faced with multiple decision and opportunities.
To do or not to do. To Be, or not to be.
They say, "If it's meant to be, it is up to me."
There's no such thing as coincidence, only planned coincidence.
Things happen for a reason beyond our understanding.
And instead of evaluating and over-thinking, we should just go for it.
Shoot for the skies and let our loved ones be our parachute. Just in case.
We don't regret the things we do, we regret the roads not taken.
Don't live in a life of what if's, curious on what we could've been.
That's fantasy, and we didn't take that path. Too late now.
Maybe it was for the better. Maybe it was for the worse.
All I know is, it's what you don't have now.
It's what you do with what you got that makes you, it's what you don't got that breaks you.
Don't dwell on the things you don't have, love things you do have.
Don't complain on the things you did, complain on the things you didn't do.
Actually, don't complain at all.
Learn from your decisions. Know that they weren't right, nor were they wrong.
We choose things in life for various reasons.
Whether it was in the moment, the feeling, the time, or what fit.
It's done with. You can't control it, I can't control it.
We can't go back in time.
Learn from your decisions. Learn from other people's decisions.
We won't live long enough to make all the decisions in the world.
We won't live long enough to make all the mistakes in the world.
Think before you speak. Think before you act.
Actions speak louder than words.
Silence speaks louder thoughts.
Actions always have consequences.
The size of consequences matters on the size of your brain.
Think about others, Care for close ones, Love the best ones.
Measure the pros and cons if it effects others than yourself.
It's not always about you Bro.
Sacrifice is necessary.
Your happiness is the measure of not just your happiness but the ones around you.
If you are happy, she ain't happy. "We ain't happy."
Life isn't measured by the happiness of one individual, but by the party of individuals.
Life shouldn't be measured by just your happiness.
Selfish, greed, power, authority. All will kill the world.
All will kill your world, and if we let it, will kill our world.
Life is a gift. Life is a beauty. Life is one of a kind.
Balance between yourself and others.
There's a time to be selfish, and there's a time to be self-less.
Know the difference, and know when it's right.
One choice, one shot, one opportunity.
One choice can make you.
One choice can break you.
It's all we'll get. Make the most of it.
Understand, things will not always go your way.
If it's not meant to be, it won't be.
Things happen for a reason beyond anyone's understanding.
We don't regret the things we did, we regret the things we didn't do.
Do your best, try your hardest, and let fate take over.
At the end of the day, know you did all you could.
You did the best you could do.
Leave no room for what if.
When the job is done, walk away.
With your held up high, go ahead and touch the sky.
Sky's the limit, but it's how big you make your rocket.
There comes a time when somebody will enter your life and will snatch your heart with one quick swipe.
And instead of defending your walls of security, you crumble in a moments impurity.
Everything you stood for, everything you believe,
Falls down like fall seasoned coming leaves.
Debating on whether to skip a chance is safer than reliving your hearts past stance.
Is it always the best to be the last one to stand?
What should you do, what should you say,
When love opportunities come to bay.
People come and go, so keep the one who cares,
She’s the one you want in your life to share.
What can be, what has become, isn’t what may be coming.
When you live for nothing, you’re not afraid of dying.
But when you start living, you’re now afraid. Of Losing.
Fight the odds and disappointments for better of your heart,
or take a chance for something to start.
Live knowing you left it all on the table,
Or let it be, let it go, and remain stable.
Your heart has a track record and it’s not that you don’t wanna try.
But history’s seen that everything there will be, will only be, a lie.
It’s like a track on repeat playing you in these situations,
And all it takes is one look of her persuasion.
Wishing things were different, you search for shooting stars,
Cause she’s different and she can heal your hearts scars.
Although the countless possibilities seem more improbabilities,
and the probabilities near more and more as impossibilities.
Take a leap of faith and live knowing you did the best,
Remain optimistic and wait for her heart to confess.
They say good things come to those who are patient.
And when the time comes, tell her you mean This.
Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
Share your heart because you won’t be her failure.
If it’s meant to be, If it’s pure fate,
It will be, And you will wait.
