Never Good

It is what It is,
Nothing more, nothing less.
I've been down this road before.
Maybe not with you, maybe not for you.
But by golly, I have been down this road.
If you think by me being down this road before,
stops me from trespassing these broken walls.
You're wrong.
You think I don't know what you don't think I know,
Whatever it is, I know.
Whatever you think, I believe.
And whatever you want, I give.

Every person is different, and every person tells you their different.
But that's not really up to them to decide,
Who's different, who's not.
Individually, we are all different.
But together, we all whole.
You think this world can have 7 billion people,
and not one single duplicate.
One thought, one factor, one mind.
You think because you do something one way,
That makes you different.
No, the things that you do different are being done exactly the same.
You just don't know about it,

I would've went Heaven and Earth to make sure you were happy.
You brush me off with just one sweep.
Every little mistake I made, was magnified.
Every little doubt, was exclamated.
Every little feeling, a lie.
You think you feel what you never felt before,
But those look in your eyes tell me your lying.
The words you never said are the words I know the truth.
It doesn't take a mind genius to know, it's wrong.

Nobody likes to take the blame, so allow me to be the fall.
You want to tell me these lies of feeling, of emotions, of happiness.
It was I who was not able to satisfy your every need.
I was a want, no a need.
A necessary commodity, an unreliable source.
It was me who was wrong for you.
Because like before, they are never wrong for me.
It is my fault I am never good enough.

In the end, nothing has changed.
The script, as once before, written a thousand times.
Like a copy, a duplicate love story.
Same main character, different supporting cast.
It does not take someone who does not love,
A big Fuck You sign, to tell me I'm not enough.
You did not have to lead me to believe,
that I was the Right, or the Perfect.
A thousand stories have been written under the circle,
A thousand stories return empty and broken.
How do I believe your different when you follow the book.

If we could change the world together, I would in a heart beat.
You know I would.
But you want to change the world with someone else.
After all the things we have been through, you finally got it through my head.
I was never the one you wanted, only a stepping stone.
Like Swiss Beats and Jay Z, it's On to the Next one.

You think I'd be good at Good Byes since I've seen so many.
With every entrance comes an exit, and It is definitely my time.
It's okay, you don't need an excuse or a lame fight to tell me,
You don't want me.
You don't have to tell me you're scared to move forward,
As it's only a reason to leave me behind.
You can't move forward when you're stuck on someone else.
Just like you can't move on when you're heart is with them.
The only thing You want me to do is move over.

You don't need to ask,
I won't believe anything else.
The only thing I ever wanted was you to be happy.
And with that, it is clear to me that I failed.
So go on love, take what you can these days.
I'm sorry, I was never enough.

Feb Yary,

February 2012

Food for thought:

Still jobless. But searching.
I think I've applied to over 100 state jobs.
30 Other jobs.
Through Denver, Sf, Md, Sac, and La.
Cars for sale. Time for baby to go bye bye.
Jeremy Lin... Got murdered against the Heat.
Good for him on the other games, but he needs to take care of the ball.
Speaking of, I'm in 9th place in fantasy.
Easter is coming up.
GMAT is still a hard test for me.
Grad school is in the distance...
Whitney Houston passed away.
I haven't had time to write in here.

Movies of the month:

Act of Valor.
Safehouse.
Taken.
Valentine's Day
Twilight Breaking Dawn

Youtube (New!):

Ellen Scare Montage
Ellen entire episode with Taylor Swift and Zac Efron
Sophiaa and Rosie Rolling in the Deep
Rush Hour 3 Carter Singing
Rush Hour 3 I is you, you is me.

Songs of the month:

Who The F is Gold Schlag.
Part of me. Katy Perry.
So Good. B.o.B
Marry Me. Bruno Mars
Murder of Excellence. Jay Z and Kanye West

Quotes of the Month.

"Life is like riding a bicycle; The only way to keep balanced is to move forward"
"Victory belongs to those who believe in it the most, those who believe in it the longest. We're gonna believe, gentlemen."
"Social networking kills relationships. Fact."
"No matter how dirty your past is, your future is spotless."
"You don't step in to love, you fall into love."

Rule of the Month.

#19 Follow your heart and your heart only.

Goals of the Month.

_ Pass the GMAT.

_Apply to Grad School.

_Find a job.

_Write more.

Techno >_9

There's something terribly wrong with the way the world works. I don't mean to be a pessimistic fool, but there's something we all worry about too much. I guess it is common these days to get lost in the translation of things just because the ability of technology exists. Remember twenty years ago when things like iPods and cell phones didn't exist. How to meet up people, you would have to call their house phones? In order to listen to music you had CD players or Walkman's.
And now, since the technology boom, we all are able to have multiple sources to play music, e-mail, text, and call individuals. Is it more convenient? Of course, who would disagree. Do we all need a little help some times? Yes, we do. But there needs to be a fine line between using the technology for our benefit, and overusing it for the attention. Although this whole paper is hypocritical (it's on this blog, a media outlet), the use of technology has blown dramatically out of proportion.
It's simply used too much. And by too much, it usually means for attention. Twitter, a status update of your mood, your thoughts, and your feelings. What's cool about it is other people can read your exact feeling and any given moment. What's not so cool, telling the whole world of contacts you have, even the ones you don't talk. Same thing with status's on Facebook. You can check in your exact location and your every step..Why? I guess documentation you were there. But if you think about it, you make it easier for stalkers to stalk you. Haha.
You know what I can't stand...And this may be hypocritical cause I do it all the time in class. Burying yourself in your cell phone to look at the latest clothing, technology, and news. Educational, yes it is. But seriously, talk to the people you are around rather than text them. What happened to the good ol' phone conversations with the power of the voice and emotion. Seriously, I've seen too many times, texting and tweeting give others the wrong idea. The context of a text is looked way too deeply or most likely taken the wrong way. I guess it helps if you want to flirt...But other then that, it's really destructing to our personalities.
I guess what I'm trying to say is..Even though we have all this technology at our disposal..Don't forget where you came from. It's okay to write hand written letters and send them via postage. Sure, it'll cost you a dollar..But you know what, it's more personal. I'd honestly rather receive a letter in the mail than a text message or a tweet. It's more meaningful and it's more heart-warming. Seriously, though...text messages are like group texts. You never know if the WSUP or Hii is really to you or some other fool. I'd add to this but it's time to stop writing...I haven't written in this blog thing for a while, so maybe i'll add more later.. But yeah, just remember what life was BEFORE the cell phone.

A little Late neverr hurts January!

Last months Thoughts of January 2012

Time flies faster with every year that you grow.
Fantasy NBA is kind of Effed because of the shortened season.
Fantasy NBA is effed cause I drafted Brooke Lopez and he's injured.
Vernon Davis was a beast against the Saints and Giants.
49ers back their entire team up.
School is back in session.
Girls are still Girls.

Music of the Month:

Tim Mcgraw's new album.
Motto. Drake and Weezy.
Breaks my Heart. Monica.
Make me Proud. Drake ft Nicki Minaj!

Tweets/Quotes of the month

"The older I get the more I have to leave behind, that's life."
"Come here, come here you little shit."
"You're Always so negative, 'she said."
"Never say I can, it only leaves doubt. Always say I believe, then there's only room for success."
"You can't change everything in one night, but one night can change everything."
"So I sit here divided, talking to myself. Was it something I did, was there somebody else."

Rule of the Month

#12 Never take anything for granted. Bitch!

Goals of the Month:

__ Stay ahead of the game.

__ Study for the GMAT

__ Find a job.

__ Make the ones close, happy =]