Ice like the Rocky Mountains.

you are the darkest angel, yet you are still an angel.
that smile is contagious, it is filled with poison.
yet i have fallen for it, like a trapped bird
one who has broken their wings for you. and there is no notice.
i have fallen off ledges, to try and conquer your mountain,
but you only see the top of that mountain.
i don't exist in your world, yet you are mine.
i'm just a viewer on a plane that looks down at world you live in.
somethin from afar, somethin that when you look up, you can't see.
yes. i am irrate, irregular, irritated yet invisible and irrelevant.

you are on the upper half of the lower half. which makes you
the best of the worst , the worst of the best.
but that doesn't matter to me. it never did.
you shot me down without giving me a chance.
blamed me for your bad luck, for something i didn't even do.
but you know, that's fine. because you need that fall guy
ill be that guy. because you'll never be that girl that's mine.
you ignore that i love you. so i'll ignore being in love with you.
it's eating me alive. and i can't stop it you know.
it's like termites eating the wood under the house.
you know it s there, yet you can't stop it. there's nothing i can do.
but there's something you won't do.

my heart is a desert. red. screamin. hot. on fire.
and you have the water. the ice. the cold. freeze.
everybody wants you. and i mean everybody.
and i . i don't even need you.
you're just there. there stuck in mind all day
and nothing i can say or do to change any of that.
don't you think i want you gone?
i want you gone
that way i won't have to dream no more.
that way i don't have nightmares no more.
it always ends the same way.
i fall. you rise.
you love. i die.