If she told me to Stay, that's Why I'm Leaving.

Frost is building up on her windshield,
She stands in front of me, tears in her eyes.
I look deep down into her eyes and wish.
If she told me to stay, I would stay.
But things don't always work how we want them.
Every time I start or try to start something,
She stops me.
It's not because she doesn't like me
It's because she still loves him.
And every time she gets over him, he reels her back in.
And every time It always comes back to her.
I pause, I wait, and I listen.
Her silence speaks everything I predicted.
Tears of rejection, eyes of sadness, and words with no definition.
This will be the last time I run in this circle,
This will be the last time she has me all to herself.
It's amazing how she can be everything to me
But I am only so much to her.
I could be everything she's ever wanted.
Only if she wanted.
How many times can I break before I shatter.
After a year seems long enough.
We already know how this one ends,
The same way it's end the last four times.
Words go unsaid, actions are left with desire.
Moments of silence last several months
I am left with wishes and desires
She is left with one less nobody.
Maybe one day she'll grow up
Maybe one day I'll move on.
One last hug for the holding.
One last sour, peck, on the cheek.
Read my mind and just kiss me.
Kiss me already because I know you want to.
Kiss me and tell me you want me to stay.
If she told me to stay, I wouldn't be leaving.
If she told me to stay- That's why I'm leaving.

 

Snowin in June

There comes a time when you reach your darkest hour.
And when this time comes, the tornado has no mercy.
Everyday you wish to stay in bed and never go anywhere.
Have you ever been in a white out with the power out and the heat gone.
It takes you by surprise because you've never experienced it.
And everything else is covered in snow making it impossible to leave.
You were standing there in the wake of devastation
Living on the edge of the unknown.
You look to your concrete, your backbone, your strength.
And To no surprise, You were standing there, possibly alone.
It wasn't because you weren't friendly, and it wasn't because you weren't fair.
Some say you're the nice one, others say you're the best friend anyone could ask for
But none of that really matters when you need someone for yourself.
You really don't know who's dependable until you need them.
You really don't know when you need them until they ignore your calls.
And when you realize things aren't always how they seem .
Words mean a lot but silence means so much more.
"Not mad, you just have this tendency to cause problems, whether it's deliberate or not."
It's always when you least need someone when you have em'
And they're never there when you need them most.
Brotherhood is built on this, friendships die because of it.
What we once were, we are no more.
The words are filled with deception, never filling them to be complete.
It's time to let go, it's time to move on.
You'll catch frostbite if you stay in the snow too long.
You'll die if you don't move on.
Thank you world for not being there when I needed you most.

Alone is Here I stand.

I'm down and out, lost and alone.
Unaccomplished, looking for the purpose
Incomplete. Something's missing,
Something's not right.
The right turn has made it wrong
The wrong turn is all that's left.
We don't know what tomorrow brings
Yet there's nothing here today.
People aren't who they once were.
Work doesn't have the spark it once had.
And loved ones have been stolen.
Washed up and confused.
Solo as a friend, Solo as a man.
Something's missing something's not right.
No one understands, and no one believes.
Doubted and hated.
Alone is Here I stand.

The Good Stay Alone

Does it ever end? The darkness.
Filled with disappointment, Laid with deceit.
Impression from friends reflect the darkness among the individual's depression.
Exactly the opposite from the mind's evaluation of the groups perception.
Lies lay among layers of listed levels linked to deception.
Worried about peers, worked by employers, standing solo until somebody notices.
Heart once learned to live enchantedly and love endlessly.
Instituted by prestigious, perfectionist parental care
Trained to individualize and depend independently on oneself.
The measure is not where the individual lies in himself, but the value of his peerminship.
It is not where he treats himself above others but others above himself, knowingly known nobody is greater, everybody is equal.
Money talks loud voices but volunteers walk louder footsteps.
Nobody knows these days nothing about selflessness.
Reverse psychology equals negative interest in bad news
And great things result in unnoticed information.
The last man standing is standing in the darkness of fulfilled,
deceived, population.
A Superhero is what everyone recognizes as an icon who symbolizes fairness and equality.
But sometimes Peter Parker and Bruce Wayne is all we should appreciate.
It's funny that the the world loves everyone in masks, never the true character.
Calm and collective, charisma, charm, characterizing through challenge and controversy.
The Good Stay Alone.
Good things fall apart so worse things can come together.
The darkness is sometimes followed by a warm, Bright Light, sunshine.
Other times it's followed by dark skies, cold tornadoes, and black snow.
Love the individual, not the mask.
Not the villain, not the phony or fake.
Or the favorite, or prettiest.
Someone does. Somewhere.
The Good Stay aLone.